a cap of tea without sugar

Before the aggression, I used to challenge myself to control my desires and resist cravings for things in front of me. I don’t know why I did that, but I always felt that something bad was coming I just didn’t know what.
These experiences helped me survive the psychological exhaustion we’re facing during this famine. It’s been almost 90 days without food, and aid has been completely restricted. What little does get in is nowhere near enough for the people’s needs.
Only two weeks ago, I started losing control over myself. I’ve been craving so many types of food that are no longer available in the market. I won’t name them because I have crazy friends who might stop eating them in solidarity.
I am still capable of enduring more, but I can no longer bear to see scenes of death.
This is a cup of tea without sugar as a kind of dietary routine.
I know I haven’t written in a long time because of what I’ve been feeling, but I always try to stay strong.